Head Vrs Heart?

There has been something buzzing around my head, and i guess my heart...and that is what does it mean to say "head and heart". No matter when you go or who you talk to it seems that this phrase just seems to make sense, emotion vrs reason. Head versus heart. I read and heard the phrase "i new it in my head but not in my heart" In fact i've said it myself, as a classic line in my testamony. So it gets me to thinking, this head heart conflict isn't mentioned in the bible and scientifially it dosn't make a shred of sence, so why does it seem so common? Why is it a problem? How can i change the head vs heart idea of god to a head and heart in sync together idea of god. Maybe i'm just no good at some emotions but it's always been much easier to focas on KNOWING "about" god, and not the actually knowing of god. But then i think, the desire i have to know everything possible about god dosn't come from nothing. I think that it comes from a desire for relationship.
for example:I recently had a new roommate move into my house. This guy contacted me over the internet as he isn't from here, and i was searching desperatly for a roommate so I said that he could move in. He arrives fresh from the airport on the first luggage in tow. I show him his room and give him a quick tour of the relavent rooms. He then disapears. It's now the 6th, and i have only seen him in passing twice. It's weird for me to someone i know nothing about living in my house so i have madfe a point of trying to find things out about him. Now the problem is that he's a hard one to talk to since he is just never around. When i see him i try to casually ask questions. I have also tried to find about him in other ways : Facebook mostly. Searching desperatly to find out about him, to see if we have things incommon, intresting things about him etc. Genna seems to think this is just plain creepy but i see it differently.

I think in a weird way this is very similar to my reationship with Jesus, not in the way that Jesus us unavailable to me, infact the opposite and I try to take advantage of his availablitiy and love, although it is definatly something i need to work on. But I also think that in the same way i can get to know my new roommate but looking at his facebook and talking to others that know him...I can look at God's incredible jam packed version of facebook. And let me tell you God's privacy settings are super low. So not only am i going to try harder to keep up with study of the bible, but also take advantage of the "mutual friends" that God and i have. By talking with others about realtionships, and as well as things we know ABOUT God, i can know more of God's heart, and therefore share in it more. This is my theory at least. So this is my goal. No more head vrs heart seperation, no emotion good reason bad or vise versa but Head and heart in unity in realtionship with my maker.

A side step really, In the same area as head and heart unity i am making a public deleration that I no longer want to be a slave to cognitive dissanance. I will not let my soul, my reason and love be a slave to my desire.
Cognitive dissonance is when i know something in my head/heart and yet i do that action anyway: "incontinance" as Arisotle would put it in "the nichomachean ethics"

Paul also mentions this frustration in his letter to the romans:
15I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[c] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.

21So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22For in my inner being I delight in God's law; 23but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. 24What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? 25Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!
So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God's law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.


I share in this frustration with paul, Cognitive dissonace is the term used in pshcyology when your ideas and intentions don't line up. It's dissance. The problem is that you can't live like that, something has to change. Your actions...or your belief.

More and more i am noticing this in my self, that i am a slave to my desire, to sin. That i have altered ideas about sin and live because my sinful actions are harder to change. And i want to stop this. More than anything in the world. I should not be embarrased by my actions...that proves that my mind is in conflict. So my goal which i am telling you all now is to consciencly decide to change my actions and not belifs, because i think that for the most part i have been taught good morals.

I would say that this is my new years resolution, but i don't want to make it impossible...so instead i'm going to take it day my day. Sure i'll slip up, but i'll be honest with my self when i do and remember the next thing that Paul wrote in romans:
1Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus,[a] 2because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death.

-That's all for now.